My Story

I guess I should tell you how I came to where I am today.  My mother was obsessed with what she looked like.  She would work out three times a day when we were kids.  That definately made me have a poor body image.  At fourteen a started to binge and purge even though I was about 115 lbs and no where near fat.  It didn't last long and was more a stage in my life to me.  I was able to get over and move on rather easily.  I got married and had my daughter a few years later.  I tried everything to lose the weight but NOTHING worked, then a year and a half later I got pregnant with my son.  I was still carrying an extra 20 lbs from my daughter so after I had my son I was determined to lose the weight.  I started in January of 2008 and was losing 1 to 2 lbs a weeks with diet and excercise.  After I lost about 25 lbs of the 50 lbs I needed to lose I went into panic mode.  It started with just throwing up things that I knew that I shouldn't over eaten but then quickly turned into a full on binge and purge cycle.  At my worst I could easily eat 5000 calories during a binge.  I would do it at night when my husband and kids were sleeping.  My mom started to notice a difference in me and she had known about my bulimia as a teenager so one day she called an asked me flat out.  I'm very honest so I said yes and then she gave me an choice.  I needed to tell my husband or she would and she gave me two weeks.  I told my husband the next day and then slowly my dad and siblings found out.  I haven't had any formal treatment.  It is a struggle everyday and I still have relapses every once in a while.  I just take things day by day.  it is not a quick fix or the easy way out for weight loss.  The binge/purge cycles can actually make you gain weight.  Plus I would rather have a few extra lbs and not have to deal with this problem but that just can't happen now.  If you feel like you may turn to an eating disorder then seek help.  It really is all about prevention because once you're in it you can never get out.  I will forever have an eating disorder and that is my truth.

Hello my name is Angela and I'm a complusive eater

WHY DO I EAT WHEN IM NOT HUNGRY!!!! that is all =) oh and I will be hitting the treadmill tonight with Marineward playing Drill Sergeant....

Semper Fidelis is COMPLETE!!!!

OK guys just finish my very first FanFiction!!!! So excited and sad all at the same time...I will now be 100% focused on writing MyMia.  SF is very light compared to Mia so make sure to check it out in the list of links I have!!! Also check out my very insane one shot Mind of a Lunatic!!!!

Interesting Article I found

About The Author, Irina Webster
Dr Irina Webster MD is the Director of Women Health Issues Program which covers different areas of Women Health. She is a recognised athority in the eating disorders area. She is an author of many books and a public speaker.learn more about eating disorders at http://www.mom-please-help.com

DAY ONE

Ok I promised myself that once I started this blog that this was it...I'm taling control.  No matter how supportive my family can be they just don't get it.  I obesess over food.  That's just the simple fact.  My little personal herion sitting in my kitchen.  I sometimes think that drug addict have it easier.  Atleast when they decided to get better they just have to avoid being around the drugs.  There's no avoiding it when you have an eating disorder.  That's all for now I guess but I just wanted to post that because everyone has to start somewhere, right?

My first blog post

I just wanted to let everyone know that I really hope that this site can help you in some way and I will work hard to find information for anyone that's looking.  I struggle with bulimia and I honestly find it theraputic to talk about it.  I set it so that if you want to comment anon. then you can.