Teaser: Winds of Change Chapter 2 EPOV

“I don’t know why you’re being to stand-offish about this. We’re best friends, we’re close and who better to give your V-card to than someone you really care about,” I argue, my seventeen year old brain thinking that it makes perfect sense. She rolls her eyes at me.


“Plus, you’d be getting mine in return. It really is a sweet deal. It’s not like you’re planning on saving yourself for marriage anyway,” I quip.

“Yeah I know, but it’s still weird. I mean if I say yes then what? Are you going to walk over here, tear my clothes off, and just do it? Or will we plan a day and then meet somewhere like a seedy motel room? It’s awkward at best, Edward” she laughs.

Say No to H8

I'm so fucking sick of the hate that fills fandom.  I don't give a fuck if it's your 'opinion' or not!!! Saying mean, cruel, shitty things and using 'it's my opinion' as an excuse to be an asshole is utter fucking bullshit.  Here's a genius idea, don't personally attack people so that you feel like a bigger person. The sudden influx of hate related tweets and blogs baffles me.  Why the negativity? What's worse than the people that spew the hate are the people that support it.  The beauty of FanFiction is that if you don't like a story then you can close out, no loss to you.  You didn't pay for it, you didn't invest anything but the time you spent reading.  It seems like the bigger Twilight Fandom gets, the more assholes there are.  I guess that's just how it is.  It's still a shame that people who mind their own business seem to be the ones targeted.  Why does anyone care what they tweet or say in AN's if they don't follow them or read their stories?  It seems that it's done just for the joy of hurting peoples feelings.  I'm starting to feel like a bit of a masochist being apart of it all.

Teaser: Chapter 13 of Play With Me

“I don’t like that you’re naked in here, with all the doors unlocked while there are a bunch of guys running around downstairs,” I said, watching my girlfriend shave her legs through the foggy glass.


“Oh God, I hire them every year, they all know that the upstairs is off limits… are you going to turn into a cavemen on me?” she asked looking up and winking.

“Would you like it if I knocked you over the head and dragged you off to my cave?” I played back. She smirked and then shrugged her shoulders

“Maybe… depends on the cave. Does it have a pillow top mattress or a whipping bench?”

“What the fuck is a whipping bench?” I asked, confused and intrigued all at once.

“All in good time my dear, all in good time,” she cackled like the Wicked Witch. I was strangely turned on and almost decided to change our costumes.

“I know you won’t tell me what I’m going to dress up as but can you at least let me know how I should do my hair and make up?” she asked as she dried herself off with a towel.

“Slick your hair back into a low bun and do your eyes dark and your lips red,” I said, pretty certain that’s how it’s supposed to be.

“I’m not going to be one of those guitar playing chicks from that 80’s music video, am I? If that’s the case I might just tie you up and not let you out of the playroom at all tonight.” I just laughed and walked out of the bathroom, grabbing my costume so that I could get ready in the guestroom.

Play With Me: Chapter 12 Teaser

“Is there anything I can do?” I asked, watching Renee move quickly around the kitchen. I hated watching people do stuff when I was just sitting there do nothing.


“I’ve got this under control. You just enjoy your coffee, sweetie,” Renee replied, going back to the stove. I wrap an arm around Bella and we sat like we do most mornings, drinking coffee in comfortable silence. Usually we fight over the paper because Bella is one of those rare people that still subscribes to one.

“What’s the big plan for the day?” I ask, knowing there’s no way I’ll get to have her in bed all day. I’d love to let her know all day long how much I love that she was born thirty years ago.

“Rose, my mom, and I are going to do lunch and bit of shopping after breakfast. My dad called and made a tee time for you guys to go golfing this afternoon. Then we’ll meet back here and get ready for my party,” Bella said sounding more excited about her party than she did the day before but not looking me in the eye when she brought up the golfing.

“You know I hate golfing, I suck at it… like I really suck. If you think I’m a shitty sub, you should see me golf, it’s embarrassing,” I whispered, not wanting her mom to hear me. It was bad enough they couldn’t get me naked, now I would disappoint her dad even more with my horrid golf skills. I don’t think they were disappointed about the lack of nudity, but more the fact that I have been an uptight douche since Em arrived. Apparently, I can’t hang in a setting like this.

All New

I'm going to start posting teasers and pictures here.  And all my little rants and shit I do on twitter will happen here instead :)

Digital Get Down Contest

All the details are not finalized but I wanted to give everyone a heads up. This contest will be strickly digital lovin so give me your best webcam sex, strip teases via Skype, phone sex, ect... (if they end up in person it has to start online first)

Here's what I know right now...

Hosted by myself (@angela4148) and @Juliegirl18

Judges are: @Stupidreader @Lilacs46 @HAtreehouse @shaelove @thurtysomething & @secamimom

This is ANON so don't tell anyone if you plan to write

O/S lengths are 3,000 to 10,000 words

Once I have the prizes aka banners on lock down I will figure out dates and we'll get this party started :o)

New Fic Idea

Okay, so I had this crazy idea and I wanted to see if anyone would be interesting in reading it.  It would be a total humor fic with no drama, no angst, no issues...

Edward is a thirty something, married to his high school sweetheart Bella.  They live the typical life of kids, carpool, BBQ's and missionary style sex after bedtime or quickies in the shower when the kids are napping.  Bella starts reading FanFiction and expresses an interest in things a bit more kinky than he's use to. In order to appease his wife he looks at a few of the stories and decides that he's going to surprise her with reinactments (enlisting her BFF, Alice who is also a FFn reader, for help)... can everyday, normal Edward live up to the fantasy man that the women of FanFiction create?

All EPov... it would not be a very long story, depending on the lemons that I pick and if the authors are cool with it...

Dumb idea?

My Mia ReadAlong

Date/Time: Tuesday, April 27th at 9pm EST


Fic: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5562695/1/My_Mia

Story By: angela4148

Hosted By: @carolamex

twitter #readalong

It is so easy to participate:

1. You must have a twitter account. Go to www.twitter.com if you need 2 sign up. Once u have your twitter account, go to your twitter home page and "find people" and "favorite" the following:

* @TwiReadAlong

* @angela4148

* @carolamex



2. Now, go to your twitter home page. On the right hand side, you will see a spot that you can "search". Enter #readalong and save it. This will become clickable and show up under "saved searches" on your twitter home page. You will find this #readalong to the right of your screen.



3. During the readalong, you will not view the tweets on your "home" screen, because you won't see what everyone is saying. You must click on the saved search #readalong & remember to hit "refresh" to update your screen.



4. When you tweet, you have to type: #readalong (with the hashmarks) then you can just type whatever.... By typing #readalong, it puts your post on the #readalong page so others who are parcipating can read what you are posting and vice versa.



A sample tweet is: #readalong "And with a gentle rocking motion, they made love." Love it!!



5. At the start time you can begin posting about the story if you've already begun the first chapter. You can tweet about whatever, ask questions, whatever you want. Have fun and don't forget to leave a review for every chapter.



To find out more info on other read alongs, please go here: http://theficbridge.blogspot.com/?zx=eece13be430dee63


Thanks bunches to @hockeymomtweets for making this for me!!!!!!

I say Boo to You!!!!!

So I usually say my peace directly on twitter and move on but something has been bothering me for a long time. There was a tweet made while I was discussing my bulimia with someone that said (paraphrasing) “To fake an illness to get your story attention is pathetic”. I think that it’s PATHETIC to attack other authors with LIES. I also think that it’s PATHETIC to constantly bash people for reasons that are invalid and extremely unnecessary. If you have an issue with an author then put it in a PM or a DM. Keep the negative bullshit in private so that this fandom doesn’t feel so fucking catty all the time. I’m over the bitching back and forth over stupid shit. There are not many authors that are good enough to get published, that’s just the truth. We do this for fun. Twitter and Twi Fandom take us away from the stress of real life. These people suck the fun out of it hardcore!!! Anyway I know I’m like two days late for this but I needed to say it. *takes deep breath* I feel better now! :o)

Thank you!!!

The feed back that I have been getting for this story is beyond words.  All my readers are so sweet and keep me writing.  The next chap will be by far the hardest to write and I hope that you all like it.  Writing this story has been very theraputic and surprisingly I'm more comfortable talking about it now.  I don't even think about chatting about it on twitter or adding a post here.What's the first step in recovery? Acceptance?  I think by talking and writing about it I have finally accepted it.  I just wanted to say thank you for sticking with me and continuing to read and review this story.  My last purge was in January so I think it has been a so far so good feeling when it comes to writing this story.  I still get anxious and I have the urge more days than not but I just put that negitive energy into the story and turn it into something positive.  It will be 2 years in March that I've been dealing with this cycle of my bulimia.  Having a month of being binge/purge free is so fucking awesome and I hope that it continues that way.  Until next time =) 

It's my party

OK so I think the worst part of having a birthday is the cake...I know its there.  I'm fucking floundering with the self-control.  I think if I post this then it's like telling on my self and this is all about the secret.  I will not be eating anymore cake.  One piece is enough.  When asked a question about god today I kind of freaked.  I lost my faith at a time when honestly he gave up on me.  It is what it is.  Maybe someday I'll get it back.  At 26 yeats old I have watched my parents slowly torture eachother, my mom fall into depression, I lost my 3 year cousin in a terrible accident, my husband was deployed twice, I develped a deadly problem that I can't seem to fix.  I could go on forever.  Where was god in all this?  So here on my 26th birthday all I can think is that I hope I get my faith back because that means that I got my life back too.

Shitty

Had a bad night last night...feeling more positive today.  Totally getting sick though but I will be starting chapter 4 of My Mia tomorrow.  I just have to find my inspirational song for the next chap.

My Story

I guess I should tell you how I came to where I am today.  My mother was obsessed with what she looked like.  She would work out three times a day when we were kids.  That definately made me have a poor body image.  At fourteen a started to binge and purge even though I was about 115 lbs and no where near fat.  It didn't last long and was more a stage in my life to me.  I was able to get over and move on rather easily.  I got married and had my daughter a few years later.  I tried everything to lose the weight but NOTHING worked, then a year and a half later I got pregnant with my son.  I was still carrying an extra 20 lbs from my daughter so after I had my son I was determined to lose the weight.  I started in January of 2008 and was losing 1 to 2 lbs a weeks with diet and excercise.  After I lost about 25 lbs of the 50 lbs I needed to lose I went into panic mode.  It started with just throwing up things that I knew that I shouldn't over eaten but then quickly turned into a full on binge and purge cycle.  At my worst I could easily eat 5000 calories during a binge.  I would do it at night when my husband and kids were sleeping.  My mom started to notice a difference in me and she had known about my bulimia as a teenager so one day she called an asked me flat out.  I'm very honest so I said yes and then she gave me an choice.  I needed to tell my husband or she would and she gave me two weeks.  I told my husband the next day and then slowly my dad and siblings found out.  I haven't had any formal treatment.  It is a struggle everyday and I still have relapses every once in a while.  I just take things day by day.  it is not a quick fix or the easy way out for weight loss.  The binge/purge cycles can actually make you gain weight.  Plus I would rather have a few extra lbs and not have to deal with this problem but that just can't happen now.  If you feel like you may turn to an eating disorder then seek help.  It really is all about prevention because once you're in it you can never get out.  I will forever have an eating disorder and that is my truth.

Hello my name is Angela and I'm a complusive eater

WHY DO I EAT WHEN IM NOT HUNGRY!!!! that is all =) oh and I will be hitting the treadmill tonight with Marineward playing Drill Sergeant....

Semper Fidelis is COMPLETE!!!!

OK guys just finish my very first FanFiction!!!! So excited and sad all at the same time...I will now be 100% focused on writing MyMia.  SF is very light compared to Mia so make sure to check it out in the list of links I have!!! Also check out my very insane one shot Mind of a Lunatic!!!!

Interesting Article I found

About The Author, Irina Webster
Dr Irina Webster MD is the Director of Women Health Issues Program which covers different areas of Women Health. She is a recognised athority in the eating disorders area. She is an author of many books and a public speaker.learn more about eating disorders at http://www.mom-please-help.com

DAY ONE

Ok I promised myself that once I started this blog that this was it...I'm taling control.  No matter how supportive my family can be they just don't get it.  I obesess over food.  That's just the simple fact.  My little personal herion sitting in my kitchen.  I sometimes think that drug addict have it easier.  Atleast when they decided to get better they just have to avoid being around the drugs.  There's no avoiding it when you have an eating disorder.  That's all for now I guess but I just wanted to post that because everyone has to start somewhere, right?

My first blog post

I just wanted to let everyone know that I really hope that this site can help you in some way and I will work hard to find information for anyone that's looking.  I struggle with bulimia and I honestly find it theraputic to talk about it.  I set it so that if you want to comment anon. then you can.