Thank you!!!

The feed back that I have been getting for this story is beyond words.  All my readers are so sweet and keep me writing.  The next chap will be by far the hardest to write and I hope that you all like it.  Writing this story has been very theraputic and surprisingly I'm more comfortable talking about it now.  I don't even think about chatting about it on twitter or adding a post here.What's the first step in recovery? Acceptance?  I think by talking and writing about it I have finally accepted it.  I just wanted to say thank you for sticking with me and continuing to read and review this story.  My last purge was in January so I think it has been a so far so good feeling when it comes to writing this story.  I still get anxious and I have the urge more days than not but I just put that negitive energy into the story and turn it into something positive.  It will be 2 years in March that I've been dealing with this cycle of my bulimia.  Having a month of being binge/purge free is so fucking awesome and I hope that it continues that way.  Until next time =) 

It's my party

OK so I think the worst part of having a birthday is the cake...I know its there.  I'm fucking floundering with the self-control.  I think if I post this then it's like telling on my self and this is all about the secret.  I will not be eating anymore cake.  One piece is enough.  When asked a question about god today I kind of freaked.  I lost my faith at a time when honestly he gave up on me.  It is what it is.  Maybe someday I'll get it back.  At 26 yeats old I have watched my parents slowly torture eachother, my mom fall into depression, I lost my 3 year cousin in a terrible accident, my husband was deployed twice, I develped a deadly problem that I can't seem to fix.  I could go on forever.  Where was god in all this?  So here on my 26th birthday all I can think is that I hope I get my faith back because that means that I got my life back too.

Shitty

Had a bad night last night...feeling more positive today.  Totally getting sick though but I will be starting chapter 4 of My Mia tomorrow.  I just have to find my inspirational song for the next chap.